One Decision.

I want to tell you about my last desire.

It is not my last desire because it is the last one standing, or because all other desires have fallen away.

It is my last desire because in all its intensity, in all its strength, in all its depth, in all its ability to rule and govern my heart, it has eclipsed everything else I could want.

More than my womanhood wants the committed love of a man,
More than my womb wants to someday bear my own innocent children,
More than I want to meet up with my own future bought for me by student loans and hours of studying,
More than I want my next breath,
Do I want you to experience Jesus with a heart that sees by the eyes of faith.

Because you are one decision away.

One decision away from a clean slate. One decision away from the loose ends of your life starting to come together and make sense.
One decision away from experiencing what it is like to have your own Creator dancing around you, eager to show you what He has made, eager to show you what He has seen, eager to show you His own undying heart for you.

He is a humble Father. Humble-- that He would think it worth His time to set so much glory and beauty and care in your heart of flesh. Humble-- that He became flesh so that His flesh might be ripped away to utter the most costly and irrefutable "I love you" ever spoken by man. He is a mighty Father. Mighty-- that He rose again to say to death, "excuse me." Mighty-- that He has the power and desire to step in front of you and say to death, "you cannot have him/her."

When you tremble, He is still. When you are confused, He is unchanging. When you feel alone, you have His people. When you feel lost, you have His book. When you suffer despair, you have His Spirit in you. And when you doubt, faith patiently waits for you, and it suffers no lost time.

You are one decision away from abundance. One decision away from Life with a capital "L."

You are one decision away from realizing that you are a creation of the only Creator. That He spends all His creation for the purpose of loving you.

In vanity I have pursued other religions. I sought them out because I wanted to be spiritual, to find something that fit me. But logic tells us that there is something that is True, and something that is False. Something that is God, and something that is not. We do not get merits in heaven for the "number of souls we save." We do not keep tallies. We have no personal gain other than the inexplicable joy and relief we experience when a dear brother or sister steps into the Light and begins to dance for the first time. No, I am not saying these things to you because I am interested in numbers. I am not saying these things because I am brainwashed into being a spiritual salesman. I say these things to you now because I know Him; I have experienced the only God that moves. He is so alive.

You can be Buddhist. You can be Taoist. You can be undecided. I have been all three. But let me assure you- those things will not love you. They will not move. They cannot carry you, because there is no God behind them. I am telling you these things now because I have found the ultimate goldmine-- the singular decision that stood between me and the God of the universe.

And as long as I love you
I cannot know you
and know Him
and know that you do not know each other
and be okay.

I submit these words to you with every ounce of love in my heart, knowing that I cannot make this decision for you. It is the easiest and hardest thing you will ever do. Because while it is a singular decision, it is the only decision that requires 100% faith. The decision is yours to make. But I could not leave these things unsaid or bow to fear that I might scare you away with the power that is behind these words. Because when it comes to eternity and true Life, who cares about an awkward moment?